Is this describing my feeble attempt at praying?
I certainly hope not.
The morning sun is streaming through the windows warming the edge of the bed. It is a cool crisp morning. There is a light breeze today. The leaves are beginning to change to shades of yellow. The branches sway and the leaves dangle like the mane on the back of a horse’s neck. It is the beginning of Fall. The time has changed and the holiday season is right around the corner once again.
A little bird flew up to the window this morning curious to see what was inside. He could not stay long for his tiny claws had very little to cling on to. He flew away and then returned for one more attempt to hang on and peer inside the room.
Part of me wants to lie down on the bed and soak up the warmth of the sunshine. I want to feel its heat on my body. I want to be in the light yet remain unseen.
I cannot open the window because it does not work properly. It appears to be a functioning window, but in fact it is dysfunctional. The windows are a safety hazard in reality. When you raise them up they later come crashing down and fall out of the frame. Not really what you expect to happen when you open up a window.
We discovered this quite by accident when we needed to open the window after heating up some oil too hot. Electric stoves are a challenge to control.
First we turned on the overhead stove vent fan only to find that it drew up the smoke into the cabinet above which quickly seeped back into the room. There must be some safety code violation here, but who knows. So the vent fan is useless for venting it just recycles…novel concept at best.
We really do not want the smoke detectors to begin going off alarming the whole building. That would be soooo embarrassing.
This is when we discovered the dysfunctional windows. There are even parts on the window that say do not use. It seems someone got a good deal on some windows; not bothering to make sure they would work. Maybe they do not fit properly into the frame and that is why they just fall out. Maybe they were not properly installed from the beginning.
Later in life when you begin to feel the necessity of prayer; then comes the question…
Is my prayer life simply dysfunctional windows? Is my prayer life just a method of recycling my inability to turn to God?
If your prayers are not bringing about change in your life they are just like the vent fan recycling the same smoky air. I recently read that the devil does not mind if we pray and worship God just as long as we do not change. Prayer should be bringing about a change in your heart. We can pray night and day, but unless we are willing to let God change us we are like the windows in the hotel….nice but non-functional.
If you do not let God change you into a better you; then you are going to fall out of the window frame when the first real crisis comes along.
The time has changed, the trees are changing, the season is changing…now is the perfect to take an inventory of your heart. How have you changed since last Fall?
Are you saying your prayers and letting them wash over you like water off a duck’s back? Are you ‘installing’ the proper words on your lips even if you know they are not from your heart?
As long as the window remains locked and not raised it appears to be a functional window…when it is in fact broken.
As long as the vent fan is not needed to do its job the switch does go on and off…but the intended results cannot be realized.
Even if the window is falling and the fan is recycling; they still have the potential to be working properly.
Prayer must change you in some way… no matter how great or small.